Updated: Dec 9, 2021
I’m sick of feeling so neutral! I’m so happy to live somewhere so close to the many people I love but I am desperate for something far more. I want so badly to be wholly alive and not live in a stupid mix of mediocre 80 degreed everyday. There is SO MUCH MORE variety somewhere else. I want to shovel a driveway and feel my nose start dripping from the cold and take off layers of clothes as I walk into a small warm apartment. I want to get in my car and turn on the heat and let my fingers sit on the vents to warm up. I WANT TO SEE MY BREATH WHEN I EXHALE AND FEEL MY THROAT STING EVERY TIME I BREATHE!!! I want to come home on a bleak day and eat soup! I hate soup but I’d eat it if it cured my frostbite that I’ll never ever experience. Let me be cold. I can’t stand the neutrality any longer.