preface: broke up with my boyfriend. Something about autumn is full of recognition. I’m learning a lot about myself and recognizing so much. Autumn is newness and passage of time and clarity that comes from waiting.
autumn is so clear. I still recognize you
even after the change
I see you. you’re there and
same gentleness and care
same need to receive from me more than I could possibly give.
autumn covered years in the cage I agreed I should be locked up in.
i looked up at autumn realizing how far I had fallen. and the sky waits. Blues and greens. I’m there.
the autumn is inevitable and I’m desperate to be free.
im gone and forgotten and now I am only yours in shadows and memories.
autumn took you away from me
autumn is so clear
i see your goals and I’m satisfied.
I understand things now. I see so plainly how things should be and how far from my heart you were
autumn taught that to me.
you are so permanent.
For years, all I saw was you.
you are permanent
and even then I’m free